I'm an unsatisfied house wife.

Every time I think about doing interviews, the simplest question makes my stomach knot up: "What do you enjoy doing?" I've come to realize that a lot of the "joy" I find in my life comes from making other people happy. One of the reasons I've done well in school over the years is because I always want those comments on my papers that say things like "I really enjoyed reading this," or I want group members to love our final projects, or I just want my family to be happy, even if they're just happy for me. But if a teacher isn't happy with a paper I wrote, I have a hard time convincing myself it was worth any of the time I put into it. The problem is that I've always had trouble finding things that make me happy directly.

For example, I think I love cooking. I will spend hours and hours making an extravagant meal for other people, but when there's no one to cook for, I have no motivation to make anything beyond a PB&J for myself. If I love cooking, shouldn't I love it without having to depend on other people? Maybe cooking's a bad example, but my point is that I haven't found anything that I really enjoy doing on my own, and I've tried a lot of stuff. My parents helped me try everything while I was growing up, including soccer, gymnastics, ballet (and jazz and tap), Girl Scouts, swim team, basketball, volleyball, salsa dancing, clogging (yes, like Riverdance), piano, guitar, singing, acting, traveling, painting, ceramics, crocheting (not kidding), fishing, waterskiing/tubing/boarding, skydiving...and almost everything that I tried I enjoyed for a little while, but being "good at" something almost always came from having a coach or a leader pushing me, because on my own I lost all interest. I seem to be completely insatiable, and it drives me crazy.

I have these terrible daydreams of me never finding something I love doing on my own and turning into the classic housewife from the 194os, happiness completely dependent on other people, sitting around or cleaning until someone comes home to bring me some hope. I know it'll never get that bad, but I am a little worried. :(
Help!